Eliza's blog: A Moment of Reflection

I keep thinking about the burnt toast theory – that if you burn your toast whilst in a rush in the morning and you’re inconvenienced to make another slice, those two minutes are the reason you miss something else, be it being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Meaning all the things that happen that seem like inconveniences are actually part of some bigger plan, meant for you. That seems to get me through my commute in the morning anyway when people walk at snail’s pace out of the station and I struggle to get past. However, it makes me think about previous events I perceived as inconveniences at the time, but every single one of those moments has led me to where I am today.

That takes me to now, Clapham Junction, as I have indeed moved back to London into a flat share after moving back into my parents’ home earlier in the year.  It didn’t feel like it was part of my plan in January, but I am grateful that I got to spend time with my family (for the most part), and save up a bit of money. Now, I am in my new flat, and everything feels exactly like it was meant to be.

My confidence feels like it has grown significantly this year, being able to cope with certain situations I would have previously shied away from. Whether it be dealing with a difficult situation at work, or being asked to do a presentation to a large group of people, I know I am able to do this, and also do it well. I only really think about this when I take a step back, and annual performance review is a great time for that. It’s a time where you must review all work you have done for the year, and it has reminded me how much I have achieved over these last 12 months. You have to really vouch for yourself here, which doesn’t always come naturally, but in doing so you bring to life all the impact you have had across the department and wider business.

Then I think about the last twelve months and it reminded me that I turn 24 in a few days. I always feel a bit emotional towards my birthday. I don’t know why, but you can guarantee that every year I will cry on this day. I almost did today when I forgot my ID and the cashier in the supermarket did not let me buy my own “2 4” birthday candles without this. She took them away and this felt somewhat cruel, however reframing it, I guess I am glad my youthfulness is still visibly apparent.

Writing these blogs has helped me to think more positively, challenge myself, and prove to myself that I can achieve way more than I give myself credit for. Even if that challenge is to write an entire blog in one evening!

Eliza works in HR at an Investment Bank in the City of London. When she is not at work she spends her time playing netball, seeing friends and exploring all the coffee shops South West London has to offer.

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